Hello Silly Pea. Today's the day. I'll see you after you've met your friend and had the session with Ysabel.
Will text you soon.
Friday, 10 May 2019
Note 15
Hello Silly Pea,
I love your new WhatsApp display picture. I miss you, and I can't wait to meet you tomorrow, but I'm also terrified.
It's been a long day here (for you there too, as my Spymaster told me). Early breakfast, early move out, cleaned a stretch of a beach somewhere in Bali, back to shower, off to Banyan tree for a product presentation and interviews, to some day club (what a concept) then dinner upstairs of it. Patrick's been a gem on this trip. Was initially skeptical given our less than amazing work history, but he's really been a bro.
There hasn't been much to report regarding boundaries. It's been relatively straightforward, although I sometimes think ahead when I previously didn't. Things like what if people agree to after-dinner drinks at the hotel lobby, but end up cancelling to leave me alone with just one girl. Thinking so much is new to me, but it's not difficult; I hope that's something that'll set your mind a little more at ease, at least for now.
In these two days I've had half a cup of coffee and half a serving of alcohol. Not too bad, I think. I'm heading out now for a drink with Patrick and Daphne (the PR manager). Have you been eating well? Hope you'll be able to sleep properly tonight, since you didn't last night and maybe even the night before.
Silly Tree
Thursday, 9 May 2019
Note 14
Some bed time reading on my end, as usual, from a link shared on Facebook. Thank the gods for well-read, curious friends.
Here: https://www.vox.com/2018/9/4/17486110/metabolism-diet-fast-weight-loss
Stay safe Silly Pea.
Here: https://www.vox.com/2018/9/4/17486110/metabolism-diet-fast-weight-loss
Stay safe Silly Pea.
Note 13
Just did a quick 20 minute session in the gym, Silly Pea. Kettlebells are no joke. My left forearm is currently slightly swollen from improper use – I slammed it a few times when doing cleans before giving up. Unfortunately, the damage is already done, so I'll probably just have to bear with it for a few days until the swelling goes down.
I miss you, Silly Pea. I'm here with 3 other journos:
Patrick from T Mag
Melissa from Crown (she works with Alvin)
Peter from Deployant
I'm closer to Patrick and Melissa for sure, and am neutral towards Peter (albeit leaning towards dislike sometimes because of how gian png he is). Three of the Breitling folks are here:
Alvin the boss, who handles the whole East Asia market
Daphne the marketing manager
Charmaine her assistant manager
Alvin is always quite chill and easy to hang out with. Daphne I've known since I started out in this industry. Charmaine is barely two months old in this industry, having transplanted from SK Jewellery.
I was hoping that one or more of the bros will come for the trip. Alvin, Terence, or Sean would've made great company: no need to talk too much, easy company, you know what I mean. Alas.
The day's been largely spent either alone, or in a group during the lunch and dinner. I hung out separately with Patrick for a while, just to catch up, because we haven't seen each other for quite a few months. This was the same Patrick whom I sicced the Small Claims Tribunal on, if you recall; he's in a better head space now, I can see, now that his failed relationship has had time to fade away a little.
It hasn't been difficult to do what I said I would. Keeping to work and work-related gossip with Melissa and Daphne, for instance, when I talk to them alone at the table, and bringing personal matters up when more people are involved. I still think this can be done – it just needs more practice, and vigilance.
I miss you, Silly Pea. I'm here with 3 other journos:
Patrick from T Mag
Melissa from Crown (she works with Alvin)
Peter from Deployant
I'm closer to Patrick and Melissa for sure, and am neutral towards Peter (albeit leaning towards dislike sometimes because of how gian png he is). Three of the Breitling folks are here:
Alvin the boss, who handles the whole East Asia market
Daphne the marketing manager
Charmaine her assistant manager
Alvin is always quite chill and easy to hang out with. Daphne I've known since I started out in this industry. Charmaine is barely two months old in this industry, having transplanted from SK Jewellery.
I was hoping that one or more of the bros will come for the trip. Alvin, Terence, or Sean would've made great company: no need to talk too much, easy company, you know what I mean. Alas.
The day's been largely spent either alone, or in a group during the lunch and dinner. I hung out separately with Patrick for a while, just to catch up, because we haven't seen each other for quite a few months. This was the same Patrick whom I sicced the Small Claims Tribunal on, if you recall; he's in a better head space now, I can see, now that his failed relationship has had time to fade away a little.
It hasn't been difficult to do what I said I would. Keeping to work and work-related gossip with Melissa and Daphne, for instance, when I talk to them alone at the table, and bringing personal matters up when more people are involved. I still think this can be done – it just needs more practice, and vigilance.
Note 13
Hello Silly Pea,
Nothing much going on today. We flew in, had lunch, I headed back to my room to work for a bit, and it's now dinner.
Gonna eat a bit and hit the gym before doing a lil' more work tonight. Tomorrow's a long day, with rubbish picking, presentations, and another dinner to end the day with.
My sister bought the frozen dumplings for you. It should be sent to my house next week. I told her I'm not sure if you still want it. She said my mother can have it if you don't.
Back to shore tomorrow. Make tonight a good one (:
Silly Tree
Nothing much going on today. We flew in, had lunch, I headed back to my room to work for a bit, and it's now dinner.
Gonna eat a bit and hit the gym before doing a lil' more work tonight. Tomorrow's a long day, with rubbish picking, presentations, and another dinner to end the day with.
My sister bought the frozen dumplings for you. It should be sent to my house next week. I told her I'm not sure if you still want it. She said my mother can have it if you don't.
Back to shore tomorrow. Make tonight a good one (:
Silly Tree
Wednesday, 8 May 2019
Note 12
Is it peaceful out there, Silly Pea? I hope you don't get the squalls that have been pummeling Singapore for the past few nights. Sleep well, please.
I packed my bags in literally 18 minutes. Best record yet. And yes, this being Bali, there's no need for formal wear, so it's really casual. I'll be staying at the Hyatt Regency; the irony picking rubbish on the beach while sleeping in a posh hotel isn't lost on me.
I look forward to telling you more about the trip. I will be mindful. You'll see.
My spy told me you miss me. I'm glad, and am allowing myself a little sliver of hope.
I packed my bags in literally 18 minutes. Best record yet. And yes, this being Bali, there's no need for formal wear, so it's really casual. I'll be staying at the Hyatt Regency; the irony picking rubbish on the beach while sleeping in a posh hotel isn't lost on me.
I look forward to telling you more about the trip. I will be mindful. You'll see.
My spy told me you miss me. I'm glad, and am allowing myself a little sliver of hope.
Note 11
Hello Silly Pea,
You should've boarded the cruise by now, since it's already past the cut-off time. I hope you have fun.
Dinner was home cooked; my mum cooked a huge plate of mixed vegetables, tau pok, and black fungus that you'd have loved. Wish you were here.
Silly Tree
You should've boarded the cruise by now, since it's already past the cut-off time. I hope you have fun.
Dinner was home cooked; my mum cooked a huge plate of mixed vegetables, tau pok, and black fungus that you'd have loved. Wish you were here.
Silly Tree
Tuesday, 7 May 2019
Note 10
Hello Silly Pea,
I just went for a Google event and got the new Pixel 3a as a loaner set. Fingers crossed they don't want it back, then I can wipe it clean and pass it to you. It's about the size of your phone, so you'll have no issues getting used to it. What more, it has the same camera capabilities as its older siblings despite being the budget version, so I think you'll really, really like it.
Met new PR people, since it's my first time actually going for a Google thing. I'd like to think that I was careful, and kept things pretty much to work and next things to look forward to at Augustman, but it's really not difficult in a setting like that. I'm keener to put this into practice in Bali; like I said, I'll report back.
Yina told me you two chatted till almost half past two this morning. I hope you're not too tired right now. You should be boarding your cruise soon. Please have fun, and enjoy being off the grid. You need (and deserve) this rest.
Silly Tree
I just went for a Google event and got the new Pixel 3a as a loaner set. Fingers crossed they don't want it back, then I can wipe it clean and pass it to you. It's about the size of your phone, so you'll have no issues getting used to it. What more, it has the same camera capabilities as its older siblings despite being the budget version, so I think you'll really, really like it.
Met new PR people, since it's my first time actually going for a Google thing. I'd like to think that I was careful, and kept things pretty much to work and next things to look forward to at Augustman, but it's really not difficult in a setting like that. I'm keener to put this into practice in Bali; like I said, I'll report back.
Yina told me you two chatted till almost half past two this morning. I hope you're not too tired right now. You should be boarding your cruise soon. Please have fun, and enjoy being off the grid. You need (and deserve) this rest.
Silly Tree
Note 9
Hello Silly Pea,
Your Dell laptop is ready and waiting for you, after a few dead ends and detours in setting it up last night.
I heard from my spy that you're in far better spirits today. That's good; I'm glad, and I hope this streak continues. It's just four more days, and you're spending two and a half of them on a cruise. I hope it's going to be a good break for you.
There're so many things to tell you, from Grace's (slightly) improved attitude to the freshly printed copies of the new issue to the mix up in Montblanc's event date. I wish I could, and I hope I can.
I'm not looking forward to the Breitling trip, actually. It still feels like a waste of time. I oughta look at the itinerary soon. If for nothing else, I hope it'll give me a practice run to be mindful about things, like how I think I have been in the office, and perhaps to prove to myself that this can be done.
I'll report back soon.
Silly Tree
Your Dell laptop is ready and waiting for you, after a few dead ends and detours in setting it up last night.
I heard from my spy that you're in far better spirits today. That's good; I'm glad, and I hope this streak continues. It's just four more days, and you're spending two and a half of them on a cruise. I hope it's going to be a good break for you.
There're so many things to tell you, from Grace's (slightly) improved attitude to the freshly printed copies of the new issue to the mix up in Montblanc's event date. I wish I could, and I hope I can.
I'm not looking forward to the Breitling trip, actually. It still feels like a waste of time. I oughta look at the itinerary soon. If for nothing else, I hope it'll give me a practice run to be mindful about things, like how I think I have been in the office, and perhaps to prove to myself that this can be done.
I'll report back soon.
Silly Tree
Monday, 6 May 2019
Note 7
My spy tells me you feel better after meeting your friend today. I haven't a clue if that's Francis, or Zhang Hui, or someone else, but it doesn't matter. Thank the gods for this.
I'm glad you feel better. But I'm also awfully afraid that you'll decide after this week, that you don't want me anymore.
I'm glad you feel better. But I'm also awfully afraid that you'll decide after this week, that you don't want me anymore.
Note 6
Hi Silly Pea,
Checked in on you through Yina, and heard that you're not well. I'm thankful for her; she's the keyhole through which I can look in on you. (Sounds pervy, not meant to be.)
I just saw your Lang Leav post. It scares me. I wonder if those "arms so warms" will be mine, and that forest and mountain ours to navigate, or if you'd rather do it alone, and choose to find yourself in someone else's arms.
Silly Tree
Checked in on you through Yina, and heard that you're not well. I'm thankful for her; she's the keyhole through which I can look in on you. (Sounds pervy, not meant to be.)
I just saw your Lang Leav post. It scares me. I wonder if those "arms so warms" will be mine, and that forest and mountain ours to navigate, or if you'd rather do it alone, and choose to find yourself in someone else's arms.
Silly Tree
Note 5
Hello Silly Pea,
It still feels strange to not talk to you. Hope you managed to rest for a bit last night. I had many vivid dreams about you. One involved us being in the same class and going for a music exam. When the examiner came out to say that it'd take a while because candidates must be tested individually, you magically produced a bed complete with comforter and pillows, so we could cuddle in it while we waited. It was sweet, and very you. I woke up earlier than I had hoped, tired, but I imagine it's far, far worse for you.
https://www.nationalgeographic.com/science/phenomena/2015/04/24/when-hubble-stared-at-nothing-for-100-hours/
This popped up again on Reddit this morning. I've read it before, and I think you would appreciate a story like that, whether for a nugget of unimportant information, or for inspiration, wherever you may need it.
Pointing a telescope in space at a seemingly empty patch of sky for a hundred hours. Who'd have thought? Courage is a strange, strange thing. I've been thinking about how it's probably the one thing keeping you here. It can't simply be tenacity, stubbornness, or hope in isolation, at least from what I can see. Truth be told, I shudder to imagine what I'd have done in your shoes; I wouldn't be surprised to log into Facebook and see you gone, actually.
But fear is the mind-killer, and there's little point fearing what I cannot control. I will download Game of Thrones tonight, and work on your laptop while that's happening.
Silly Tree
It still feels strange to not talk to you. Hope you managed to rest for a bit last night. I had many vivid dreams about you. One involved us being in the same class and going for a music exam. When the examiner came out to say that it'd take a while because candidates must be tested individually, you magically produced a bed complete with comforter and pillows, so we could cuddle in it while we waited. It was sweet, and very you. I woke up earlier than I had hoped, tired, but I imagine it's far, far worse for you.
https://www.nationalgeographic.com/science/phenomena/2015/04/24/when-hubble-stared-at-nothing-for-100-hours/
This popped up again on Reddit this morning. I've read it before, and I think you would appreciate a story like that, whether for a nugget of unimportant information, or for inspiration, wherever you may need it.
Pointing a telescope in space at a seemingly empty patch of sky for a hundred hours. Who'd have thought? Courage is a strange, strange thing. I've been thinking about how it's probably the one thing keeping you here. It can't simply be tenacity, stubbornness, or hope in isolation, at least from what I can see. Truth be told, I shudder to imagine what I'd have done in your shoes; I wouldn't be surprised to log into Facebook and see you gone, actually.
But fear is the mind-killer, and there's little point fearing what I cannot control. I will download Game of Thrones tonight, and work on your laptop while that's happening.
Silly Tree
Sunday, 5 May 2019
Note 3
I've been walking you into those lampposts again / But I'd rather do that than let go of your hand
I tried to distract myself with a couple of YouTube videos. It worked for a bit, I think. I can't wait to share them with you, and to hear your thoughts on them.
I tried to distract myself with a couple of YouTube videos. It worked for a bit, I think. I can't wait to share them with you, and to hear your thoughts on them.
Note 1
Hello Silly Pea,
It's been barely 6 hours and I'm missing you terribly already. I tried to take a nap, but had nightmares instead. Went for a run to force myself to breathe, but it felt pointless anyway, so I just started walking two thirds of the way in. Quite pathetic, really, to barely jog 1.6km and walk the remaining 800 metres.
I listened to you, y'know, and went through the motions of eating. It made me nauseous. Then there're the random moments of panic when I fear for the worst, that you'll decide that it really is better to just leave, and I'll find that you're no longer connected to me on Facebook.
Maybe this is penance. Poetic, huh? Absolution isn't coming from this though. Or is this purgatory? Whatever it is, I can only imagine that it's far worse for you, and I'm sorry. I wish I could tuck you in, and cuddle you, just to let you rest a little more properly.
I tried to think through why, but there really isn't a good reason for why I fucked this up so badly. I really wanted to say that I will do better, last night, when we were in Safra, but I was so fearful that I'd just sound like Zuckerberg. No, I didn't want that, which is why I wanted to tell you about the trip after it's been done instead. We're clutching at straws here to let this thing survive; I have no idea how you found it in you to give me this chance, but I will make good use of it.
Silly Tree
It's been barely 6 hours and I'm missing you terribly already. I tried to take a nap, but had nightmares instead. Went for a run to force myself to breathe, but it felt pointless anyway, so I just started walking two thirds of the way in. Quite pathetic, really, to barely jog 1.6km and walk the remaining 800 metres.
I listened to you, y'know, and went through the motions of eating. It made me nauseous. Then there're the random moments of panic when I fear for the worst, that you'll decide that it really is better to just leave, and I'll find that you're no longer connected to me on Facebook.
Maybe this is penance. Poetic, huh? Absolution isn't coming from this though. Or is this purgatory? Whatever it is, I can only imagine that it's far worse for you, and I'm sorry. I wish I could tuck you in, and cuddle you, just to let you rest a little more properly.
I tried to think through why, but there really isn't a good reason for why I fucked this up so badly. I really wanted to say that I will do better, last night, when we were in Safra, but I was so fearful that I'd just sound like Zuckerberg. No, I didn't want that, which is why I wanted to tell you about the trip after it's been done instead. We're clutching at straws here to let this thing survive; I have no idea how you found it in you to give me this chance, but I will make good use of it.
Silly Tree
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